How to let it go?

Hey everyone, welcome back to the Sunday Journal. No, this blog is not sponsored by Disney, if only they would sponsor me. (Laughs) Another week has gone by and this week, something minor happened but it has affected me in a huge way. Therefore, in today’s blog, I would like to talk about how to let it go.

So, here’s the backstory, Verene is coming to the UK and I’ve found her a room next door. My plan was to make that our bedroom and make my current room the work studio where we could focus on doing our work and making our videos. Everything seems to go smoothly and I even had a great discussion with the main tenant of the house next door. All I need was a confirmation from our landlord.

Good news, our landlord doesn’t mind but he just wants me to make sure that the tenants next door are all ok with this. That’s great! I mean I’ve talked to the main tenant and I just need to talk to the other two. I sent the screenshot of the email to the main tenant expecting good news but it turned out to be a nightmare. Unlike the great conversation I had with him just 2 days before, he said that everyone in the house disagreed and so we can’t stay there. This is fine, I mean if everyone disagrees, so be it, I respect everyone’s decision. However, before I get to reply, he began saying rude things saying that I should be considerate and I should just move out if I want to stay with my girlfriend. How rude is that, I didn’t even say a thing. Of course, everything is sorted by now and I just want to say that this terrible experience of realizing that he’s a two-faced person deeply affected me and how should I let it go?

I have to be honest and say that I’m someone who holds a grudge and that’s something I’m working to let go of. I tried to write it down (on an actual journal, this blog is my second attempt), talk it out, reminding myself of how letting go of things is not better for the other person but for myself but they’re not working fully yet. I’m not sure if I’m working hard enough or hardly working. There’s just this voice in me that speaks of how evil he is and how I should probably revenge. I truly know he is he and we should never revenge to build an unnecessary cycle but there’s just this voice that I can’t seem to quiet down.

Of course, at this stage, the voice is here and I’m glad that I’m still able to suppress it. It is possible that this is an infinite game that will never end and we’re just improving every day. I hope to hear suggestions from everyone and I will continue to work on practicing my mind. Bit by bit, day by day, I hope to live free of others where only what I do is concerned. Still, I would like to thank all of you for giving me this platform to share. Have a great weekend and subsequently a great week ahead.

Andrew